Hey I wanted to say sorry that I never updated about the full moon… or anything else for that matter.

First: I am happy to say that Bobbi is no longer an option. She was getting on my nerves and out of the $42.00 she owes me she only gave me $40.00…. wow is all I can say.

Second: Scott and I have found a cute woman* although she is married, her husband is okay with her and I so I don’t have a problem either.

Third: I may be going to Gallaudet. It’s Gallaudet or RIT/NTID. We’ll see how things go.

and Fourth: Chelsea, Vicky and I did not get to perform the full moon ritual. I am so disappointed. It will happen, but another day. :[

Only four weeks left of Spring Semester. Wow did that go by FAST!

Somehow I have maintained a 4.0  GPA this semester. I guess I really am as good at languages as people say I am. (with a social life lol)

Scott also is starting to get me into My Little Pony…. Help me I actually said it’s not that bad. LOL.

So, I don’t think Bobbi is going to work for very long as a relationship option…. I mean she’s nice but she misses her ex, Joey, far too much…. I wish she could move on and give Scott and I a chance. She agrees that with me that Scott is pretty damn amazing in bed and, my Goddess, he is. 

There is also the fact that I may be moving to Rochester, NY to attend NTID. My boyfriend will be coming with me as far as I know, and Bobbi will not… I don’t want to build something strong and then cut off the relationship.

Scott got the number of a really cute chick. My Goddess, she is adorable. Reddish hair, big bright eyes, and a cute smile. we’ll see. I still would like a girlfriend of my own, but I feel as if Scott may get jealous. I’m trying to understand what Scott wants as an outcome. What I mean is, does he realize these aren’t like one-night stands, but long-term commitments to multiple people. It worries me. 

The girl I mentioned in my earlier post is coming over my boyfriends to watch a movie with Scott and I. He wants something hot to happen, and I’m not sure if I do. Not long ago he came over and I offered to give him oral since I am crotch bleeding, to be nice. He refuses my offer and that would normally be fine with me (because of the reasons he gave were understandable) but to then, a day later, to suggest that we have a threesome with Bobbi blows my mind.
I mean, how much of a buttface do you have to be to do that?? I am also angry that he would jump into something like that without knowing her sexual history. I don’t even know if she has ever gotten tested for anything. The potential of getting hurt right there should slow you down and take it slowly, to get to know who you are dealing with.
Also, does he consider the fact that I am both physically and socially awkward? How uncomfortable would you be with another person you haven’t known very long lying in your bed, and is possibly staying in your room over night. To make matters even worse Bobbi has a new boyfriend that I have yet to even see a picture of, and he might be coming over as well. Neither Scott nor I feel comfortable with the idea of her new, strange, boyfriend entering the house let alone our bed.
What to do? We’ll see what happens tonight. I hope things remain smooth and calm.
Blessed Be! )O(

I have been very frustrated with my search for a girlfriend. My boyfriend is not helping either. What he doesn’t seem to understand is that I am demisexual, and that means I have to have a relationship with a person before I can have sex with them. He keeps pushing for sex with me and another girl. Has he considered maybe I just want a girlfriend of my own and not one we mutually share? I love my boyfriend to bits, but sometimes he pushes in the wrong way.
We found a cute girl, Bobbi, and we both like her physically, but I’m not sure about her personality. He wants to go ahead and have sex with her but I don’t think I want to imply that I want a long-term relationship with her yet. She seems too young, too naïve, and far too desperate for love and attention. She is nice but, to me, still a child. She needs time to grow up and mature. I’ll write later about why she seems immature to me.

Well, my search continues for my ideal life. Maybe I should stop dreaming and accept things for the way they are here in the now.

Blessed Be! )O(